For Baby

P2-
The first record I ever played in my room was Grammy and Papa's John Denver LP (I'll explain what an LP is later). I bought his Greatest Hits CD when I purchased my first CD player, and my love for his music and lyrics have never left me. He was truly a great spirit and singer/song writer. His music reminds me of my favorite place, Colorado, as so much of his lyrics revolve around his reflections of the mountains.

A few years back, your Uncle Erik and I went on a road trip together for a long weekend to go camping and hiking in CO. We drove through the night, and Erik, knowing how much I loved JD, began playing his CD for me right as I was waking up to see our approach into the Rockies.
There is really nothing better than listening to "Rocky Mountain High" as you maneuver through those massive mountain ranges. Anyway, my nostalgia for the mountains always returns around this time of year...so I pop in JD's music and allow my mind and heart to remember some very special family vacations in CO. Daddy and I will take you there some day.

This past weekend, I listened to the CD while Emerson and I were running errands; I was thinking of you. For the first time, I felt the lyrics to one of the songs on the CD that I have heard hundreds of times before but with which I am just now connecting.
This is my song for you. I can't wait to meet you! Love, Mommy

For Baby

I’ll walk in the rain by your side
I’ll cling to the warmth of your hand
I’ll do anything to keep you satisfied
I’ll love you more than anybody can

And the wind will whisper your name to me
Little birds will sing along in time
Leaves will bow down when you walk by
And morning bells will chime

I’ll be there when you’re feelin’ down
To kiss away the fears if you cry
I’ll share with you all the happiness I’ve found
A reflection of the love in your eyes

And I’ll sing you the songs of the rainbow
A whisper of the joy that is mine
And leaves will bow down when you walk by
And morning bells will chime

I’ll walk in the rain by your side
I’ll cling to the warmth of your tiny hand
I’ll do anything to help you understand
And I’ll love you more than anybody can

And the wind will whisper your name to me
Little birds will sing along in time
Leaves will bow down when you walk by
And morning bells will chime

Week 33

I am at the end of Week 33 and wish it were week 40.
For me, its has been more challenging to be pregnant while parenting full-time than working full-time. I never seem to get enough sleep or any down-time to reenergize myself.

To me, commuting back and forth to work or working in my office and meetings all day seem like a luxury right now b/c Emerson is just a non-stop ball of learning energy. I can't seem to satisfy her need for answered questions or activity.

I know this status is going to be temporarily worse when P2 is here, for obvious reasons.
And still, I am excited to meet P2 and have him/her outside of my body just to feel a little normal again.

I get so annoyed at "complainers" and so most of the time no one would suspect what I am feeling b/c I keep it inside and put on my "PR" face, but today I just have to get it off my chest. It is what it is. Today, I do not have the capacity to be perfect or my verison of it, anyway.

I usually write this blog while Emerson is taking a nap, but alas, she fell asleep for 10 minutes in the car on the ride home from the mall and would not go back to sleep once she got home. So, we are now having a napless day, which should be fun for all of us about dinner time.

Maybe today, Emerson can do the laundry while I take a nap? ;-)
Tired today, C

Funny Quote

This quote cracked me up when I heard it because between a fiesty, "I can do anything" personality (I don't know where she gets it from); being almost two; and teething molars, Emerson is reduced to tears at least once a day...

"They're crying, which means they haven't been abducted and they aren't dead, a good thing, right? -Kate from John and Kate Plus 8.